“IT’S BEEN THE MOST INTERESTING, EXCITING AND ALSO PROBABLY ONE OF THE MOST STRESSFUL YEARS OF MY LIFE BEING A FULL TIME BLOGGER.”

Ahh the life of a blogger – something which has been firmly at the forefront of my mind recently, what with my first year of being a full time blogger surpassing recently. It’s been the most interesting, exciting and also probably the most stressful year of my life too. If you follow me over on my Youtube Channel or Insta, you’ll have seen that I’ve been working with my favourite people at Ice Watch for a while now and when they told me about their ideas for their halloween campaign I jumped right on board!

As part of their #NaughtybutnICE campaign (see what they did there 😉 ) they challenged me to style two looks based on these two watches – The white, ‘nice’ watch and the more vampy, dark, black and rose gold watch and talk about something contrasting.i Wth my career on my mind, I decided to talk about the two sides of blogging – the pros, the cons and my recent musings of Instagram VS real life and how different our expectations can really be of someone we learn to know through those little curated squares on our phones.

I’VE HAD OPPORTUNITIES & EXPERIENCES I HAD NEVER EVEN DREAMED OF

Truly, I never would have expected some of the opportunities that have been thrown my way somehow over the course of my blogging career. Never at the start of this year, had I thought I would have been on 5 trips, 3 of which were abroad – something I am ever lastingly grateful for! I’ve been whisked on luxury retreats, stayed in beautiful hotels, flown to new countries and experienced amazing cultures and food! I also had the pleasure of working with Bicester Village and getting my first Gucci and brands press days are continually getting better and better, lavishing us with champagne, fine dining and overwhelming gifts. Never did I think I’d be sat at the Lanesborough having dinner with the guys behind Manolo Blahnik and Farfetch or having breakfast with Lee Stafford. There are some huge pinch me moments ( and this is just the start!) but it’s not without it’s cons too (I know, it’s hard to believe after all of that but there really are two sides to this world)

THE PROS, PERKS & PROSECCO

I‘ve met some of my most cherished adult friends through blogging and I now know so many inspiring, motivated and creative people thanks to this blog! Whether friendships have blossomed through Twitter, Instagram or sparking conversation at events, it’s such a wonderful and supportive environment to have and even if we’re 1000 miles away I still have girls I can count on for advice, support or just to have a little moan with! I do also, get the privilege of working from where ever I choose and whenever I choose – my bed for Sunday morning editing, a coffee shop to really spark my motivation or from my cosy desk at home. This is something I definitely try and not take for granted, being someone who used to work 3 jobs at once and barely had a moment to go to the loo I understand how lucky this working lifestyle has become.

It’s a very lavish industry and almost alike celebrity culture – people want to leave a good, lasting impression of their company on you and therefore events can be extremely luxurious (and I can totally feel out of place!) Prosecco and canapés are pretty much the diet when it comes to meetings and events and having a car pick me up will never be something I become accustomed to. I also get to work with brands I’ve adore for years (ICE being an example, love the GLAM watch that inspired this pretty look!) The earning potential is also incredible and one days work could have almost equated to my old monthly salary. The most rewarding thing above anything materialistic, is the  feeling of connecting with people, helping others and inspiring them – whether that’s to buy a new pair of shoes they thought people would laugh at or making a lifestyle change. This is sometimes short-lived, as some freelancers would agree, which brings me onto the very different side of blogging.

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“I FEEL LIKE I’VE MASTERED THE SKILL OF MAKING

EVERYTHING APPEAR WONDERFUL WHEN IN FACT

I’VE BEEN UNHAPPY AND STRESSED FOR WEEKS”

For me, every job isn’t without it’s cons and it’s really difficult for me to express these to people outside of the industry or to those who haven’t experienced them for themselves. I have this wonderful job and my life appears seemingly wonderful on my instagram feed (I definitely compensate for this on my insta stories haha – gal’s gotta bring some unfiltered realness to the game!) I love to discuss my struggles, worries and moan about funny little things to you guys – it’s actually what gets the best response as I guess we can all feel connected and like we relate and aren’t alone in our troubles! I thought this vampy (slightly in fitting with Halloween, minus some cat ears 😉 )  look perfectly compliments the Black GLAM watch and leads me on to the not so sparkly side of things! I love my job but I do struggle sometimes, so I think it’s only honest of me to discuss the pitfalls. A few things that get me down about blogging (twitter witch hunts aside!) is the universal killer that is comparison. One moment you’re really proud of your work and the next moment you question the whole point of what you’re doing and where you’ll be in 5 years time. It’s also pretty hard to get over the fact most people assume your job is pointless, vain and a total breeze sometimes.

 Some days I get less work done than others and totally beat myself up for ‘achieving nothing’. Events, whilst super amazing can also be painfully lonely, isolating and leave me feeling left out, disregarding or just stupid. I’m a really lively, and probably at times, way too chatty person. Sometimes this goes down like a lead brick and leaves me feeling ashamed of who I am and constantly talking myself out of being so chatty. I forget peoples names and then feel like an awful human for it and financially, it can be a stark contrast of bloody wonderful and then not being able to afford any bills or grab a coffee. This has left me very unhappy and left with a feeling of not knowing what to do anymore, because when I’m waiting 2/3 months to get paid and there’s nothing I can do about that, I feel pretty useless, emabarrased and like a bit of a failure (oh, hey there pity party 😉 )

I FEEL LIKE I’VE MASTERED THE ART OF PRETENDING LIFE IS WONDERFUL WHEN REALLY, I’VE BEEN STRESSED AND UNHAPPY FOR WEEKS

Creating the illusion that life is wonderful and rainbows when I’m probably, quite unhappy inside is something I’ve unknowingly done my whole life. I don’t like to ask for help, I don’t like to cry, I don’t like to admit I’m struggling but over the last few months I’ve realised it’s okay not to be okay all of the time and it’s not a sign of weakness. The last year has really tested me but if anything it’s giving me valuable life skills and building me as a person, something which is super important growing up. Sometimes you have to go through stressful times to come out the other end better (silver linings and all that!) It’s been highs and lows I’d say, which can really confuse you as a person and leave you feeling a little numb. When things are great, I’m ecstatic and when they’re bad I’m unsure of how to pull through or what my next move should be, especially if situations are out of your hands. Being a blogger truly is the most wonderful thing but not without its pitfalls, like any other job – and I think it’s important to discuss these in order to re-evaluate how we approach things. Life and our careers aren’t always plain sailing, but if you have the passion and drive you can pull though! Appreciating the not so easy parts makes us stronger, more resilient and truly appreciate the wonderful things!

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I LOVED putting this post together and had so much fun styling up look around the gorgeous watches! I’d love to know what your fave outfit was, make sure you let me know in the comments below! I also hope you loved reading all about my time as a blogger and what I’ve found to be the most contrasting sides – I’d love to know your thoughts and experiences as always! I love this crazy thing I call a job but didn’t want to paint it rainbows 100% of the time, so I hope you appreciate the honesty.

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Photography by Ben Kapur

This post was a sponsored collaboration with the lovelies from Ice Watch!

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